cause its all in my head.

Saturday, March 29, 2008 @ 9:43 PM

"Silence is the true friend that never betrays." Confucius.

cause when you turn your back, they'll be talking bout you.
but you'll never know. you want to think that theyll never
stab you in the back. never leave you lying helplessly on
the floor. never give you up for something better.

you want them to be there for you when your in need.
when you need a shoulder to cry on. when youve got
too much to handle. when everybody else ignores you
and they will be right behind you.

but how much can friends really do?
all your wants, only you can satisfy them.
and somehow, you find it quite impossible,
cause you're only you, no more than that/

Friday, March 28, 2008 @ 5:49 PM

CAPTAINS BALL is loveee.

wahhh im so bored. i dunnoe what to write about.
i think ruth is influencing my speed of posting.
its got some advantages to it. (:

something random, i like what we do during
physical training. =]

okay now im blank. byebye.
i'll try not to let the bed bugs bite =D
hhehheh.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008 @ 8:37 PM

we had the captain's ball game with the
other sec one classes today. i think team 3
(my teammm =])
won all the games.. except for one where
we had some probem wif GY. but nvm la.
then there was so much screaming,
right into my earr. OUCHHHH.
and i went deaf for awhile.

then we had to meet rachel ma'am aft the games.
and all the while i was just hearing random things
that i imagined. no la, kidding =]
i think i have a rough idea of what she was
talking about. good thing she shouted
while saying one of the things she wanted to say.

thenthen, the sec 2s taught us how to march.
marching looks nice when other people do it.
but i keep stumbling =[
shall practise moreee.

i think cikgu marini is disappointed in us D:

and at the end of the day, we played captain's ball
with charissa, jia ping, wenqian and ruth
and nurin and siti & nadira(happy) hhaaha.
we played catch too, i like running on the
white lines. =D
ohoh. then in the train on the way back,
nurin, siti and i were damn retarded la.
we were playing silent concentration using
hand signals. o.O
but cool right.

ahh i dun wanna study for quiz tmr!
and i still have malay homewrk.
i shall go do them now, really.
see im a good student. =]

oh yeahh! the coin incident.
throw, in, out, exchange.
hehehh/

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 @ 4:27 PM

the past few days have been more Cheerful =]
but got a littlt bit more problem
with redcross =.=
nvm i shan't say anymore.

just a few minutes ago i thought
i had A LOT to talk about.

wahhh why my brain not workingg?
ohh yes. i know one.

Andrea's angel is so confused. the letter was
meant for DIYANA'S ANGEL not andrea's angel.
why is it that she was the one who replied
to my letter. o.O
shall solve the mystery soon. haha
sound so crappish.

yesss. another one.

after school, i saw joelle with something
in her hand. it was a bird. hahha.
it was injured. so sadd =[
then joelle let it go but it was so
hurt it couldnt move.

and i was like 'why doesn't somebody
bring it home, maybe put a bandage
ard its leg?'

and my friend went 'that only happens
in compositions we used to write'

and i thought 'oh yeah.. no wonder it
souded so familiar'
=.=" hahha

okay i cant think of anything else.
aiyaaa. ive been screwing my past
few tests. but i WILL buck up =D

Sunday, March 23, 2008 @ 9:15 PM

random things in my bag to malacca.

just showing off my great photographic skills.

my brother is so cute =]

Friday, March 21, 2008 @ 3:14 PM

i don't like to cry.
nobody does.

sometimes,
crying just makes you
feel worse.
i do, now.

why can't i hold them back?

Thursday, March 20, 2008 @ 8:21 PM

its been a long day.
and i just realized that
the problems
i used to face is nothing
compared to the
problems i have now.

&i don't like that.

i shall take a step back.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008 @ 7:16 PM

today was a nice and happy day.
most of the sec one RedCross people
really bonded today.

and you know why?
ITs all because of the BloodBank,
THANK YOU BLOODBANK =]

so random.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 @ 9:40 PM

when things go wrong
and you cant get them right,
u move away
so they won't push you aside.

you sit in a corner
you ask if they wonder
and you tend to ponder,
afraid that you'll suffer.

time goes by
you don't want to lie
feeling silly,
you think you'll die.

wow. so random.

Monday, March 17, 2008 @ 7:24 PM

oh mannn. i don't believe im doing what im doing. i really should be studying. mann i really do need a timetable. urghh bye.

Friday, March 14, 2008 @ 6:06 PM

this shall be a happy one =]

the march camp was awesome
despite what happened. and somebody
thought i was feeling down on the
second day after the incident but really,
i wasn't. i was just tired.

okayy. ruth is a bully. she hit my toe
so hard that i nearly cried. but i didn't
cause im a strong person. okay maybe
im a little too over. heh.

ohh my homewrk is piling on the table.
and i can't get myself to do them.
but nvm. i shall PERSEVERE(PE)
hahha. if that makes sense..

&& some sec twos might just know
about aisyah's and my obsession. but it
wasn't meant to be that way. since it's
already like this, i can't do anything bout it.
so how did they know? ohhh somebody
must have told them, right? totally.
i can only wonderrr who.

so so, happy happy. im so happy,
i want it to stay this way forever.
butbut,
'why do all good things come to an end?'
becausee... bad things have to happen.
so i shall be ready for them.
okay. =]
enough already. byebye =]

i shall be happy again, soon. =D

Wednesday, March 12, 2008 @ 8:11 PM

i was really taken aback by what happened today.

i'm so sorry that i was oblivious of what was
actually happening. i didn't find enough severity
in it. eventually, i knew why the reaction was like
that. but im upset that all this was caused by the
sec ones in my year. im really really really upset.
like what is the damn problemmm ?? the seniors
have been through it but did this happen in their
sec one years? NOOO. ahh sheesh kebabs.
there's really nothing i can do now.

im so pissed i could just cry.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 5:58 PM

Stop and stare I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared But I've become what I can't beOhhh
Stop and stare You start to wonder why you're here not there And you'd give anything to get what's fair But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see.

just take note of the highlighted wrds, stop and think.

thats all i gotta say. byebye.

Wednesday, March 5, 2008 @ 4:56 PM

I AM A Retardosss Amigosss O.o

The red and white things at the back look nice rightttt=]

like got nothing better to do liddat.

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SELAMAT DATANG!!!

geddit? =]

if you don't get it, get it frm somebody..

i wanna post some more photoss.

so fun larhhh =]

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anyway, so many projects to do

but surprisingly, i dun feel the

stress at all..

ohh ohhh... this isn't right, right?

i must be like not doing anything

that's why it's like so easy going for me.

either that or.... i'm freakinnggg

good at managing my time and stufff.

i hope it's the second oneee =]

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just now mr razak made a joke in class

but nobody was laughing..

then suddenly i got the joke and

started laughing. then he looked at me.

and i was like thinking

' at least somebody got ur jokeee '

so paiseyy lahh.

maryam got the joke tooo =]

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okay! tomorrow or tomorrow's tomorrow,

i wanna post more photoss.

now, i wanna finish up my homewrk.

life is greatt yo.

Sunday, March 2, 2008 @ 8:52 PM

Hello Helllo i'm back!
did y'all miss me?
its okay if you didn't =D

mahfatdat is so cute!!
i wanna go for redcross meeting
nownownow.
okay maybe not now.. but
really soon. wahh. why i so enthuu??
but i still think redcross is fun yo.

anyway, about the mann..
wow. he's fantastic larhh.
the fact that he even got to escape..
amazing yo.

i dun wanna talk bout him no more yo.

wahhh life's so boring now a days
that i feel like sleeping all day long.
i wanna go to sch!! sch's fun yo.

i missed all the excitement with
the police men all ard sch. so cool yo!!
okay now is time to do something else.
this is getting boring =]