cause its all in my head.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008 @ 8:21 PM

hahaha. now i know what
they're all fussing about at school.
shitzxz, he's too cool.
i only really like his parkour skills.
makes him look damn strong.
super cool.
and his singing's okay, i guess.

but maybe i could do better (:
hahhaha.

Sunday, July 27, 2008 @ 8:46 PM

Happy 18th Birthday AisyahJ.
eventhough you curse and swear
at me all the time, you're still my sister
and nothing can change that.

it was my sister's birthday today but we
did absolutely nothing. until half an hour
ago when i decided her birthday cannot
be this horrible.

and all i did was made her a birthday card.
well, nobody bothered in the first place!
i bet she stayed at hope hoping that
we'll at least have a birthday cake at the
table and sing a birthday song. but no.
if i knew, i would have asked her to go
out with her friends. her day would have been
much better. i can bet on that.

despite that, we did have a meal last night.
and stayed all the way till 2. hope she
had a good time to make up for today.
yesterday was meant for today's celebration.
but it just isnt the same that way.

putting that aside, yesterday's
beach cleaning was awesome.
yeah, i had a nice time.
i got home and i was dead tired.
fell asleep and woke to my mother asking me
to wash up and get ready to go out.
i wasnt in the mood at all ):
my sister got so pissed that i wasnt ready
and shouted in my ear
'why arent you dressed yet?!
we need to go out real soon!'
and being in that mood, i shouted back
'damn it, am i not wearing clothes?!'

and my brother who was just as unready
as me laughed in the background.
hahaha. i really shouldnt have done that,
but i felt like a 'warewolf'. hahaha!

ah. i havent studied history.
urgh. i need to finish this quick.
ive not done well for any of my
recent common test D:
i feel so useless, so ungrateful, so stupid.
im sorry for saying that, if it hurt anybody.
my intelligence is the only thing ive got.
and i cant afford to lose it.
i need to work harder.
i want to work harder.
i will work harder.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @ 8:27 PM

-my name is Luka.
and i have a luka on my arm. hahaha
okay, sorry.

its a song. which you should really
try listening to.
my favourite lines are,
'my name is luka,
i live on the second floor.
i live upstairs from you
yes i think you've seen me before.'

hhahaha the song really has
a lot of meaning to it. all the pain
and suffering of abuse.
so i think its really bimbotic
to say those lines are my favourite.
haha, really, if you knew me,
you'd be able to read between the lines (:

wokayyyy.
ah.
RUYING.
is the freakiest person ive met D:
she always gives me the big-eyed stare.
and i didnt even do anything! ):
but i know, deep inside, she just
loves me. cause im so awesome, yo (:
*okay, there, you got your
part on my post, RuYing :D

i wanna get my cube lubricated!
KIMBERLY! do for me, pleaseee :D
my fastest timing is 1min50secs.
super cool right. i used to take 3mins++.
hahah but i wanna do it faster.
just the thought of the thrill while
doing it that fast delights me. hahha (:

yknw the Beach Ball Babes show
on channel 8,
its the worst chinese show ive ever watched.
total waste of time(actually most shows are
a waste of time)!
i want a nicer channel 8 show to watch.
aw man. but my parents say im
not allowed to watch too much
channel 8 shows. unless i take CSP
or something. what crap is that?
im still gonna watch anyway (:
dont go against your parents ):

Tuesday, July 22, 2008 @ 8:47 PM

this skin is too pretty for you, baby (:

Monday, July 14, 2008 @ 7:53 PM

hello (:

okay, im really glad i got over
the ez link card thing and ive already got
myself a new ez link card :D

and now. my life is a little out of
balance. hahaha. i dont know why.

this afternoon i was reading new moon.
and at one time, i started tearing
cause edward had to leave bella.
after all they've been through.
soon, i decided to close the book cause i felt
giddy(i was in the bus. you know
how it feels to be readin in the bus)
and it felt really weird cause it felt like
i was the one who was in the book.

hahaha i might not be able to differentiate
one day. haha.

but yeah, school's been great (:
and so has twilight and new moon(so far)

Thursday, July 10, 2008 @ 8:15 PM

i lost my ez-link card again.
i just got my last one 3 weeks ago.
i dont regret.
i dont want to regret.
i cried for awhile.
i realized there was nothing to cry about.
i stopped crying.

that happened only after back tracking
my steps from the bus stop up to my front door.

she asked me 'where did you drop it?'
he asked me 'did it drop in the bus?'
i asked myself ' how does it matter anymore?'
i only wished i could shut them up.
but i cant. i musnt.

i tell myself that there's a reason
for every happening. i believe.

i tell myself i must accept facts.
i must move along.

i tell myself 'at least i got something
out of this'
i got a lesson learnt.

i tell myself i'll just make a new one tomorrow (:

i know losing an ez-link card isnt much
of a severity.
but its just me. i give me the pressure.
i never thought id lose my card
since young.
then it happened. during june break.
it didnt hit me hard enough for me to
realize my mistake.

but this latest lost hit me too hard.
im glad.
now i know i should sew up
my skirt pocket.
(and no, it wasnt in my pocket when
it dropped. it was in the book.)

Tuesday, July 8, 2008 @ 4:12 PM

'when all you got to
keep is strong
move along, move along
like i know ya do
and even when your
hope is gone
move along, move along
just to make it through.'
-Move Along,
All American Rejects.

I thank benedict oh so much
for introducing that song to me.
eventhough most of the song is just
'move along' repeated continuously
(which can be a lil' bit irritating),
it really makes you change your mind
bout things and move along.

we all have to carry on with life
and leave those memories behind,
however great they are.

thats the sad thing about life
when it comes to experience;
you only get to do it once, be there once,
have that memory once but
maybe cherish it forever.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008 @ 5:10 PM

tmr's POC.
and im
kindda sad.
but oh well.
life goes on.
so we shall
go on smiling (: